Looking back, I can see that ashes in my life. I still remember the hardships, pain, and struggles. Looking at myself now, I am very thankful that the mess in my past turns out to be a striking message not just for me but for all the women (in my opinion). It is actually a series of messages that could be counted as wisdom. I would not be able to share them all at once but I know that in time I would. Little by little, one step at a time.
God is a God of order. He makes ways. He orchestrates situations or circumstances. He places the proper pieces of the puzzle of one’s life together. Nothing in life is accidental. For one mistake, God provides hundreds of tools to make up and recover from the consequences. That is, if He is allowed to work ion one’s life.
I have had a lot of heart breaking stories. Most specifically in my “love life.” All I wanted was to be appreciated. To accepted, acknowledged, to be loved back. But it almost led me to doomsday. Glad I found True Love. Yes, in Jesus Christ. The Author and Finisher of my faith.
And after all those heart breaking moments, I can now say that I am ready to be in love with a man again. Not that I cannot live without man because I know that even without a man I am complete in Jesus. But that I wish to be in partnership with a man while living here on earth. Have babies who would be the next generals of God. Of course, only as He wills.
Just so nice to be able to think about this once again. I thought that this kind of love would never come. Or shall I say, there was a time when I already closed my doors to it. But with healing and grace, I am so thankful the Lord opened it up again, with Himself guarding it so that no thief would enter. Yeah, that was only when I allowed Him to help me guard my heart in this area.
In the end, it does not really matter of nobody would come. I would be very thankful when somebody would. I do not want to commit the same mistakes and I entrust this part of my life to the Lord. Who knows, that man is already being prepared by the Lord to meet me in person soon.